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The Lies People Feed You With


Welcome to sycatsy's blog. What you are going to read now is not going to be a content filled with a motivational lesson or even an inspirational change of mind. Instead, it will be a buildup of overwhelming surge of emotions you never thought existed in you, the real you. You also understand that when life gives you lemons and you make lemonade out of it, you thought you're doing something good for your soul, but life bites you back with the sour aftertaste of lemonade, which does not help you after all. So, below are my deepest, rawest feelings that hid beneath everything else.

 Words kill. If you believe actions speak louder than words, then may as well believe that words bleed harder than actions. What do I mean by bleed harder? You will never know, not even your heart will be able to tell you until you're lying alone at your bed or even laughing, having the time of your life and the words start coming into your head like an unwanted guest. Then, the words start repeating itself over and over again until it finally changes into a representation of you. After all that, the words wandering in your mind affect the actions you do. The distance between you and the others gets further that it becomes unreachable. Despite all of this, it is funny how at times, the same people who killed you with their words begin reaching out to you and checking up on you when you are already too far away. 

 Take care of yourself first. Don't go healing people's ruined hearts when your heart is not taken care of first. Don't go doing what makes others happy but you're not happy. Don't force yourself into something just for someone else good. You are ruining yourself just for someone who would not be in the coffin with you. Being someone's savior is amazing, but remember, that if someone wants to change, they will. The opposite is applied, if someone does not intend to change, they will not change. So, don't assume that being with them will change their bad habits. Just be good to yourself and good will come to you. 

 "Get it into your head that comparing will not get you anywhere". When this statement filled my mind, I feel empty because every single time those words ring in my ears, I end up comparing myself with others and it begins back to square one. It is normal to compare when you are living in this age of time, surrounded by various people and I have not been doing a great job in seeing the good in me so sometimes, it hurts as hell when you are just blinded by everything that you feel you ain't good in anything. Honestly, i do not know how to stop comparing but what I know, a constant reminder of the little achievements you do makes a huge difference despite how small it means. 

 Lastly, a reminder : you live for God and yourself, not for anyone else.

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